Sunday, July 17, 2011

too long

So, this week has been just too long. Between work and class and getting out to the farm, I am just beat. I had wanted to spend time today in the studio finishing up some things that have been requested of me. But I think I just need to shut down my brain for a bit. Thankfully Netflix is now streaming all of the Star Treks, so my little brain can just go nerd out on the awesome that is the Trekking Universe.

Part of my struggle this week is that I am getting conflicting messaged from the universe at large. On the one hand I am being told that it is clearly time to move on from one project. The people involved in the project have slipped into some pretty backhanded behaviors and I just don't play games when it comes to getting the grownup stuff done. Particularly when I have requested what I need from others involved in this project. But... I can't actually move on from it until other things happen. And I am trying to make them happen. Trying to find the person to fill my shoes, trying to line up the resources that will be needed. At each turn, I feel I am being thwarted. And that is making it all feel so crazy. How do you help people that fight back?

Looking for the answers is tiring, but I am looking every day. I am up and out and doing the work that needs to be done. Thankfully I have a pretty intense support group. A group that has been very helpful about teaching me to ask for help when I need it, and then actually following through by helping me. Helping me by asking what I need and then doing that. Amazing.

I just need to trust that it will all work out the way it is supposed too. And that the people who are around me will do what they need to do. I have a pretty great group of readers, too, who will understand for the most part why the extra drama is just so silly to me. I am shooting for being on to post up lots of pictures in the next month or so of things I have been working on.

That and clearing out any more drama. 

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